1:59 p.m. - 2007-02-12
Lacking Balance
Hi, how's it going?
I'm so....done with fucking drama and stupid people and shit that I think I'm not going to talk to anyone that I don't want to for the next month. Or more.
::deep breath in...exhale
Yeah, I don't have that choice yet. As soon as I do, I'll let you know.
I wonder if I could find eloquent words to describe the dance of blind idiocy and stubbornness and temper that I've witnessed in the last couple of weeks. As a story, it is, I must admit, pretty damn fucking ridiculous and might play well as a black comedy. I don't know that I could do it justice. I may attempt it and post it later, but I know trying to explain it without vomiting it all out and then sorting it first will only end up with me annoyed. Again.
Let me just sort of introduce Miss Mouth. She's young, her daughter is Storm's age, and she is 12 years younger than I. She's divorced, ex lives in S.Carolin@, and she's living with and loving with her ex's step-father. Ex knows nothing of this, so she has to keep it quiet. She is loud, opinionated, and will discuss politics at the top of her lungs. Anywhere. She self-medicates with weed, and is much less strident when stoned. Bigoted doesn't even start to cover what she has a blind hatred of - she'll assume an entire race is (forget trying to explain that we differ only in culture, not genetics) going to steal her blind and then kill her. (the look on her face when I casually - really, it just fell out of my mouth - mentioned that one of my ex-boyfriends is black, and that I'm still friends with him was priceless) Anyone with skin other than white, dressed other than what she considers normal, and who speaks other than what she considers 'good English' is suspect. Of everything evil.
She can be nice. In fact, she's normally quite a cheerful person. Just ridiculously over-protective of her daughter. And scared of everything.
Yes, I know, why do I hang out with her. Well, my daughter likes her daughter. And then Krazee moved in with her. And out again in less than a week.
Like I said, a dance of blind idiocy.
I'm off...center and plumb.
