2:06 p.m. - 2007-02-26
Thoughts large and small
Have you ever...
been totally conflicted as to which road to take...
and then, when listing pros and cons, had issues deciding if something or some way to go is a pro or a con...
as well as trying to figure out how to eliminate negativity, but being stuck with someone who is negative, doesn't see it, and would probably have meltdown if you shut them out of your life?
Today is the first day that I can remember, since before my surgery (1/19, for those who have memories like mine), that I honestly had a totally empty house, and no mediation duties. Buck at work, kids at school (we were north of the highest snowfall) and no Krazee here. Except she shows up at 7:30am to hang. Did she tell me she was leaving at 8:15? No. So, I made a pointed reference that I had not had an empty house in close to 6 weeks, and I'd been looking forward to it. And I get (half fun, totally in earnest) '...fine, then I'll leave you alone...' and the tone to go with it.
(rant) Why the fuck do I have to hold your hand to tell you I need a day alone when you have heard me say I need one almost daily for the last 3 weeks?!? Do not give me fucking whinging, I'm not your mate, your mother or your boss. If you came to get your boots, and leave once the worst of the morning commute is over, TELL ME, and be clear. Don't short answer or ignore my pointed questions as to your plans. Jaysus fucking H. Christ (/rant)
Ok, I feel better...and she's in the driveway. Go figure.
Off. p.s. I was wrong...it was some idiot driver changing places in front of my house...oy, I think I need to drink. Heavily.
