8:20 p.m. - 2007-06-09
Paris who?
I? Am going to rant a bit about Paris, yes her, and then...we'll see what happens.
I have read sooo much more than I ever wanted to about Miss Hilton, and none of it has made me do more than ask "And I care why?" She's rich, not cute, just thin, comes off as a few brick shy of a load in the brains department (note I said comes off-I've never met the girl) and doesn't appear to appreciate all she has.
I know that what she has been told/learned/absorbed is how she acts, assuming (even I take that risk now and again) that she is like most children and will lead the life her parents expect her to lead. There is a whole other rant covering that aspect of how people try to 'move up' the ladder by giving their kids what they didn't have, and/or felt they should have had, just to try to appear more...something...than what they are now. But the something is usually pretty shallow; more about appearances than reality. And...while I was not going to go on about it, evidently I did!
I feel conflicted because I don't think any female should get different treatment than any male when it comes to wantonness (the whole party/sex/drugs thing, not just one aspect). That is obviously not the case, here or in any other realm. You can be a virgin, you can be a whore, but don't you dare try to be both. And you will be abused in some fashion for either choice. Patriarchy is alive and well.
On the other side of the conflict, I do believe that anyone with privileges such as wealth, influence and whatnot, should be taught noblesse oblige, at least to some extent. You have lots of money, and more free time than the average blue collar? Cool, you go work in the daycare, or the food pantry or some part of what it takes to keep things from deteriorating. No, you cannot be an 'objet d'art' and merely spend money on yourself without knowing where it came from, how it got there and what you will do to be sure you don't ever lose it. No, you cannot throw money at the problems of the world and walk away. You must take responsibility for some of the problem and work toward making it less. But then, we all must, so don't feel too badly.
Remember we are all in this together. Keep your stick on the ice! (kudos to anyone who knows where this originated, heh
{/rant}
Krazee is baaaaackkk!! Yeah, well, ok, I probably shouldn't have used Miss Mouth even indirectly, for my excuse as to K not using my car, but I wanted her to know it was serious. What did I get? Crazy Krazee. A yelling screaming fest of how I 'took sides' and 'never validated' her anger/rage/hurt, as well as the fact that I 'acted like it was no big deal'
I called Gwen; she got mad for/at me (in a good way) and told me I need to tell K to go away. I agreed. I should, and will. How? When? Not so sure. I’m not detailing today’s encounter, my vodka and Coke is just kicking in, I can’t go there right now. What I will say, is I did try to review my behavior, and my words and actions. K may have a point in saying that I was acting like it was not a big deal. But that is all I can find; the rest is bullshit. I was trying to remove the negativity from my space. I could not let her rage on about how sick, twisted and evil Miss Mouth and Co. is, without stopping her. My mental space is newly clear and healing. Damned if I will let her spew vitriol at me.
Wow..ok, clarity from writing, new experience for me. Well, of this magnitude. K needs to be as blindly angry at MM as she is, so she won’t have to take total responsibility for how she ended up homeless, alienating me, losing a ton of her stuff, etc.. She knows deep down that her behaviors regarding her rent, her working, her health all landed her in deep shit, and now she has a scapegoat. Damn, she’s pretty fucking mad at herself.
I cannot stress enough how much I feel that MM had as much, if not more, to do with the whole situation. I was not a fly on the wall, so obviously I’m getting hearsay, but I know it was a 50/50 thing. What I have to bite my tongue about is when K goes on and on about MM’s motivations. K swears MM is pretty much gleeful about the whole ‘destruction of property’ thing and that MM ‘said as much’ to her. Here is where I start losing my mind, because K is no fucking psychic, and if MM is like that, she hides it pretty fucking well from everyone else.
Ahem, sorry for the cursing. Hot button for me.
Now, I’m off to flirt with a strange man for a bit, because its better than drinking too much! (j/k…he’s only a bit strange, lol)
